Only 38 years old.

I was going to do an update today, but instead I am simply going to do a short blog saying how I am feeling and why.

I am confused, upset, sad, frustrated, disoriented, flustered, in shock, sick to my stomach, unfocused, spaced out and extremely sorry.

I got a phone call from my parents a few hours ago, at around 11:00pm... my older brother went to sleep last night, Friday August 7th, 2009, and did not wake up.

Jonathan,

I want you to know, wherever you are, that I love you and I miss you.
My kids are going to miss there Uncle Jon a lot and I my brother.
You were a wonderful person, a great older brother who taught me a lot about life during some difficult times. We had a lot of fun and memorable experiences that I will keep with me forever.
I would never have become the person I am today if not for having you to be there for me so many, many times.
I know you are in a special place and I will see you again someday.

Goodbye Jon, my brother my friend.