What will I do if I am not picked for the "opportunity of a lifetime"

What will I do if I am not picked for the "opportunity of a lifetime":
I am happy with life in every way... We all experience life in different ways and all have a story to tell, this by no means anything but what it says.
My childhood was a mixture of abuse, extreme religion and complications sending me to adulthood by the age of 14 without the understanding of what the heck was going on, I had to figure it out for myself with a few "kind" individuals which made an affect on who I am now.
I dropped out of high school 8 times over and lived life to it's fullest, partying to the extreme until the age of 20.
When my 1st son was born I went to college as a "mature student" and now have 4 completed courses amongst them 3 diplomas working with people and helping out the community. E.C.E. with honors, C.W.O.D. and S.S.W.. I help others get through life and difficult times currently working with children with Special Needs between the ages of 2-6 years and the daycare, and at home with the parents.
I love life and people, almost too much putting my life at risk as a youth at least 4 different major times and countless minor times, I am lucky to still be alive... honestly.
I get "addicted" to what I like and do it to the best that I can consuming myself with ways to "do it better", in turn I can tend to forget about myself.
Poker is about myself, I feel relaxed when playing and have only done so for a few years. This site has begun a new chapter in my perception of what I am capable of, with luck still having a factor that is out of my control. In turn it has provided me with life lessons and insight I hadn't thought of before.
I took a retreat recently that aided in listening to others, focusing on myself and practicing what I preach to others on a daily basis.
I could probably write a book, with run on sentences and no paragraphs, that would become a best seller based on my life until now. If I lived it 100 times over I could never expect to be in this spot today at this time doing things I love soooo much.
It's not what would I do if Nick doesn't pick me to advance my poker goals faster, it would be how long it may take me while building my bankroll on my own.
I plan on doing what I have done, and seeing my true potential to the fullest in anything I attempt, I have only attempted poker for 3 1/2 years and in my "spare" time have earned close to 30K- not bad for a hobby.
Kids, family, sports, job, me time and then poker.
This post has created a lot of great discussion and gives people a chance to think and re-think totally what Nick has done for us since day one. I don't want anything on a silver platter and feel more satisfied when i achieve it. Now as far as the "opportunity" goes, it may be a short cut but it will be earned, and as we all move upwards we can thank everybody in our lives for being a part of each of our individual journeys', I thank Nick and all the pros for taking the time to "open my eyes and mind" in newer ways and in turn I will be a better person and able to do a better job helping others.
In fact I was on this journey before the "opportunity" ever came up and had it all planned out in a 3-5 year plan. My blog was solely created as a way for me to track this process. I never wish for a job that I can do have "assssed" and slug through life, I want power over all my decisions and choices and the ability to recognize that which I have no power over.
I will stop there because the short answer is simply I will do what I have always done and do it the best I can. I hope only the best for everyone and say Cheers to those that try.
Earning self respect for myself in every endeavor, I have no quarrels with telling people anything about me or my aspirations as the only true opinion of me that matters is mine own.
When I die I want to look back on my life and be satisfied with all my efforts without any regrets. I know everyone posting means the best and haven't seen any malicious intent, in my eyes, just open minded discussions about poker as a career which many many many of us think about.
Wow do I feel great about this post and my life and am not worried at all about my car anymore,( The trip back from my mother in laws' was an adventure beyond most regular drives. The kids not in the car stayed with nana and papa and the air bags didn't go off. Yes I had a car accident, nobody was hurt and the damage minimal, though my nerves are shot. I am simply thankful all parties are okay. WOW am I still shaking just a little. Nothing the cat could of help prevent, just a part of life that nobody enjoys...No kids in the car, no air bags went off, nobody got hurt, no police needed, hopefully no insurance (depends on the other guy I hit), fenders need replacing and a new radiator causing steam to flow from both the car and my ears along with a bruised ego for not paying proper attention. All in all it was the best kind of crash a person can have where I did drive home and didn't have to wait for a tow truck. I guess that is why they call them accidents)
I love this post and encourage all who read it and has an opinion to write it down as it can only do more to aid in how we all look at this magnificent and relaxing "game", the more you put into it the more you will get back in both the game and in life. I am happy to be apart of the experience and look forward more... with superstitions, luck, random occurrences, emotions, noise and learning everyday something new. Let alone dreaming of something we don't have.... yet.
I have so much more to say but don't want to get "off" topic too much, this blog is supposed to only be poker related and a little about my journey.
We all are "the man"! We all Rule! Long live Jcarver's Angels as well as the Nick Nation/Rainey Army! Daniel Thank You! and Bless Brad "the man with a plan"! The white squirrel and the cat and all those that in their own way guide us towards tomorrow! Time to get back to it, the grind of life awaits me!